Insecurity can be overcome. Nepotism and corruption shouldn't affect you if you won't let it. I understand what I'm saying is easier said than done, but so is everything in life. I have rescued myself from the deepest hells in my own mind before, so this is beginning to seem very familiar to me.
Lookup law of attraction videos on youtube. Lookup Canadian lifestyle videos on youtube. Then picture yourself there and imagine what you'd like to be, which you are currently not. Imagine what you'd like to do, that you currently cannot. Then, based on your imagination of your future self, I'd suggest finding a hobby or developing a new skill and pursuing it in the precious time you have available to you before PPR, so you can use it in Canada. Time is the only real resource in life... Once you actually are in Canada, you don't want the regret of not having made the most of your time NOW. It'll take you time to settle in over there, so whatever you can do now that makes your life easier once you get there is time very well spent (and saved)! You will not be the same person in Canada that you are now.. you will not have the same feelings. And you can absolutely start heading towards that new individuality right now! It's all a head game. Above all, think positive and the world around you will undoubtedly reflect that! Perception is reality.